Watching the home where you will raise your family materialize piece by piece is an emotional process for me. I know every inch of it, every fine detail, every single thing about it. All of which I so carefully and purposefully planned and selected over several months. I can’t even drive onto the street without tearing up. It means SO much to me.
On friday Ritter and I held hands and prayed very specific payers over this home. We prayed for it to be filled with love and laughter and family for a very very long time. We prayed for safety. We prayed for protection.
We gave thanks. So much thanks. For it is only by the grace of God that this is a reality. For me, this home represents something that I always craved and never received …until I created it for myself. Stability. It was such a long journey from such a lost place -and some days I don’t even understand how I got here.
I can sit and praise myself for my hard work, my study habits, my perseverance, my insight, my choosing Eric (which was a mighty fine choice), or any other number of things that you might think led to this moment in my life. But I’m not a fool…it was all God’s doing. Every single detail of this journey. I am just grateful that I was wise enough to recognize those open doors and take the path laid out for me. I so easily could have allowed my fears and my insecurities to hold me back.
Everything that fell into place to bring me to this point in my life was no accident. Whenever I get stressed or worried I just look back…if my 36 years of living have taught me anything it’s this… things are never as bad in the end as I feared they would be, there is always meaning in the struggle, and I can handle absolutely anything that life throws at me. Worrying does nothing but make you feel foolish when you look back and see …that everything happened just the way it was supposed to. And you see God in all of it. Working quietly the whole time.
“To be rooted is perhaps the most important and least recognized need of the human soul.” -Simone Weil
One of my favorite quotes. Amen to that. Roots. God I am so thankful for the opportunity to lay down roots with Eric in this place.